sounds good. looks good. FEELS good too.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-06-23T16:29:00

2004-06-23T21:32:41Z

From now on, this is Friends only.

if your not already on my friends list and want to be, let me know and i will add you. :)

like oh my god, holler

2004-06-08T05:16:01Z

today me and shelley applied at sooo many places and we both have an interview this wednesday for brew city bbq. i realllly hope we can work together again so we can be like "table 5, hot boy, holllleeeerrrr" haha itll be so much fun

then tonight we decided to kidnap chad, litterally. hes moving this saturday already and we're gonna miss him sooo much. so we strategically parked the van next to adams car, so that when they were walking to the car, josh comes from behind the van and throws a blanket over chads face so he cant see. eric jumps out and tackles him and the two of them throw chad, who at this point is yelling "why arent my pants off yet?!?" into the back of the van as liz jumps in the drivers seat and we drive off. they were trying to hold chad down, who had know idea what was going on nor could he see anything because of the blanket over his head, and whether he admits it or not, he started to get scared, until he decided to try and tickle his unknown attacker (eric) and eric gave up laughing and chad had the most bewildered look on his face when he took off the blanket and saw that it was us. the whole thing was priceless. the only thing i wish we couldve done was tape it. it was a perfect way to say goodbye. hahaha like eric said, thats going down in the pac sun pranks book. how can i quit working there?

"everyone that looks like me is my friend, please dont hate me because im trendy.."

2004-06-06T06:52:06Z

so yesterday was BEAUTIFUL and so i decided to take the convertabile out for the first time this summer, drive to okauchee and take the boat out too. so me em neish and ashley spent a girls day at the lake, and we rocked out to some old school REEL BIG FISH haha and gravytrain!!!
just a few pictures..

ohhhhh sexyyyy

singing:"ooohhhh she has a girlfriend now...."

"you make me nervous, nervous nervous hella hella hella nervous nervous nervous" hhaha

the picture you just have to take and add cuz its cute

and of course...

thenn later that night a bunch of us went to see shrek 2, which was ooookk. not as good as the first, but still funny.

tonight was pridefest andddd EVERY year i dont know why i put myself in the same situation to surround myself with some of the most gorgeous guys in milwaukee, but know that i would never have a chance with ANY of them because im not a boy. but its lots of fun to dance there and have someone tell me how lucky i am to have shelley as my "girlfriend" hahahaha oh shelley the dancing queen :)

then to end our night me and shelley went "creepin" for old times sake and laughed about the WANTED AD we made for "blue plugs boy" a little over a year ago. oh my god we were craaaazzzyy.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-06-03T08:02:00

2004-06-03T13:10:01Z

yesterday me and shelley went to mayfair to hang out...how cool huh?
it actually was a lot of fun. first we hung out with courtney while she was on her break, then me and shelley visited chad and liz. Then we went into nicks store and just hung out in there for like an hour haha and took pictures. and i just have one thing to say to nick:

dont post those blackmail pictures of me!! i look like a frog.hahaha

wow thats all i have to say.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-06-02T13:01:00

2004-06-02T18:02:28Z

OK GO AT SUMMERFEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-31T17:28:00

2004-05-31T22:49:57Z

friday we went to this party and it was fun except there just had to be that one guy who thought everyone should know who he is, only i didnt. so when i asked him who he was, he made some asshole comment about myspace?!?! haha but it pissed me off

saturday i saw day after tomorrow. it was ok, but jake gyllenhaal on the big screen made it the best it could be. ahhhhh our ladywood (mine and ashley) was just tearing holes in our pants haha

this morning i went to my grandparents house and for the first time ever, my grandpa actually talked about what it was like for him in the war. hes never talked about it before, so i knew it would be hard to listen to, but i didnt expect to have my eyes tear up so much. i mean you see all the movies and you hear about it in school or whatever, but to actually hear soemone talk about it, who was in it, someone who lost so many friends during it, it really hits you hard, or at least for me it did. but then again my emotions could have all been mixed up with how ive been feeling lately

ive been doing a lot of thinking, maybe too much thinking. and at this party on friday, it really hit me. all those guys there, the ones i usually find attractive, arent attractive to me at all anymore. theyre only attractive on the outside but their personalities are all the same. they're like little clones of each other in everything they do,say,and how they look. and its not something i would ever want in a relationship. so then its like, well who is there?
and i know im only 19, but i think i need someone. soemone that can be there for me, listen to me and make me happy. not someone who just tries to fit in with everyone else, and thinks like everyone else. and im starting to think its hopeless

just little things like this have been getting to me and ive been crabby lately, and i dont know why. BUUTTTTTT i want to thank all my friends who have been listening to me complain A LOT over the last couple of days.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-31T03:07:00

2004-05-31T08:09:33Z

sean needs to stop coming over to my house. those of you who went to milwaukee lutheran and didnt like him then, yea he got a million times worse.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-30T01:30:00

2004-05-30T06:32:01Z

im seriously sick of this shit. i think im going through a pre- midlife crisis.

the perfect way to start off summer

2004-05-26T20:43:41Z

so thursday was the last day in the dorms and we took so many pictures, after all it was crotchfest. so i could post all those pictures in here, buttt ashley has them all in her journal, so you can all just look at them in hers.

monday night i went to nicks house and had a "sleepover" haha it was fun. shelley and nick did each others hair, shelley was going to do mine, but we couldnt find the picture of the haircut we were gonna do, so ill have to wait. i dont have too many pictures on my camera from that night, so shelley and nick if you guys have any, you should send them to me. :)

me trying to look freaked out by nicks head, i just couldnt do it though

this was just cute

then last night/ this morning, me, ashley, emily, peter and joe matthews all went down to the lakefront this morning at 4 am so watch the sunrise.

Strike a Pose!

ashley started crotch fest up again

so the only picture we take that actually gets all 5 of us in it, im looking away

ohhh that ashley...

and joe was americas homecoming queen

enjoying the view

our ladywood started acting up

this is just to show everyone that LADYWOOD comes in all different shapes and sizes, so remember, its not the size that counts, its how you use it

this is what makes me like milwaukee sometimes

and the attempted crack shot to finish off the pictures

and i started a seperate photobucket account for this summer, so ill be adding pictures constantly, and heres the link. theres more pictures from this morning that i didnt add in here
http://img74.photobucket.com/albums/v224/summer2004/

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-21T11:01:00

2004-05-21T16:16:05Z

so last night started out to be a good night. i had some people over and the night was filled with so many fun memories including
-joe falling in the chair numerous times
-ashleys crotch show
-neisha fake crying (but that comes later on in the night)
-our little girl talks with confessions
haha and there was more

so everything was fine, and then we wanted to go to bed, so people started leaving, except one guy

so i know him and stuff, not REAL well, but ive always thought he was a good guy, and hes friends with some of my friends, so he asks if he can sleep in my bed with me so he didnt have to drive home, and i said ok as long as he stayed on his side. and it didnt seem like he would try anything or was even interested in ANYTHING. well that was a HUGE mistake because within 5 min, he tried to do stuff with me and i said no. he apologized and not even two mintues later he tries again, so i told him to get off again. i didnt know what to do at this point, so i get out of bed and run up to ashleys room to tell her. we all told him to leave but he wouldnt because he was accusing my friends of judging him without knowing him, which made NOOOO sense at all. so he finally leaves and thats the end. i hope i never see him again, especially since he is moving back to cali soon. not soon enough.

in the words of emily which let me go to bed laughing
"his ass better be &%*(*^)@(#$(*@#%)**&$%"(&%#%^&!(insert manyyyyy words) glad that he didnt try that shit with me, or else his ass woulda been thrown out of the bed, had his balls ripped off, gotten the cops called on him and killed"

yea it was scary, like what was he seriously thinking? theres so many reasons why him doing that made it even that much more wrong, but i dont think i can really talk about it in here.

now i hate guys even more

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-20T12:51:00

2004-05-20T18:02:24Z

i dont know what to do about my job. theres days i LOVE it and days i HATE it. its a 50/50 thing. Ive been working there for 3 years and the pay just isnt worth it anymore, because i decided to quit for 2 months when school started and as a result missed 2 raises. when i came back i just started all over again with the pay i left with. its shitty. i mean for the summer, when im living in my house its fine, because its a 5-10 min drive to work, where i basically do nothing. but living on the other side of town, by school, and driving 30 min to work to do nothing seems almost pointless. if it werent for the people i work with, including my boss, i dont think id be there anymore. Maybe im just sick of the mall all together since ive been working at mayfair for the last 3 1/2 years. maybe once again ill try quitting my job at the end of summer, only this time not go back, but we'll see, i might just miss it too much again.

but now i have to find a job closer to school, and im not sure if working at a grocery store is something i want to do either, but i cant be too picky.

I move out tomorrow, becky already did yesterday and the room looks so empty. it is sad to be leaving the room ive been living in for the last 9 months, buts its also exciteg to know that summer is here already. which is the only good thing about milwaukee.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-18T23:58:00

2004-05-19T05:00:33Z

ok so JAKE GYLLANHAAL on jay Leno thursday night.

whose overly excited about this?

yes. its me. its pathetic i know, but i cant help it.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-10T18:21:00

2004-05-10T23:40:54Z

so reasons why nick cant move to arizona (this has to go on top)
1: becasue all his friends here are gonna miss him too much
2: arizona does not hava a chuckee cheese
3: and no chuckee cheese means no photo booth
4: and no photo booth means no making out picture haha
5: he doesnt need the real sun to tan, he can use a tanning bed
6: oh yea and no more photo shoots then :(

nick you cant leave:(

so anyway i gave my german speech today and ended up doing pretty good, im glad its over

i still have all my exams ahead of me though, and math is gonna suck :(

i move out next monday already, its gonna be sad, but im glad to move out i guess. im really excited for summer

this friday i have to go to my moms fashion show, it should be fun, i hope.

saturday im going to see timmys band, people please come with me, its only $5, it should be fun.

and yea thats it for now i guess

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-05-06T00:33:00

2004-05-06T05:39:32Z

boys confuse me, i think i hate them. :(

haha

2004-05-05T22:59:29Z

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Why I love Grand Cayman

2004-05-03T18:34:14Z

i think the pictures can do all the explaining

ok and in Cayman they have this new liquor called "Big Black Dick" and they have all these statues of Big Black Dick himself, so of course i had to take a picture with him haha

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-04-19T12:12:00

2004-04-19T17:24:12Z

friday i saw kill bill volume two and it was awesome, but definately not as good as the first one. danny did soem nipple thing to me (with his nipples not mine)and wrapped his shirt, while he was still wearing it, around my head causing me to fall into the sreet, bringing some guy down with me, it was pretty funny, then these people just started clapping saying, "it worked" umm ok. then me ashley peter ava carisa and danny went to george webbs and some guy kept staring at carissas ass, like he was even trying to hide it, and that was teh end of the night.

saturday after work me and ashley drove down to chicago to go to this party at lee's house. we didnt talk to him much, but there were lots of cool people there. including a german exchange student who i felt kind of bad for cuz the guy who brought him was using him as his "conversational piece" as ashley would put it. then some girl started telling me out of nowhere about her snowboarding trip and how she got "so drunk" and missed her train then when they were driving back, they got in a car accident, then walked 2 miles , then got back to where they started from and she got drunk again and missed her train again..like her story went on forever about her being drunk and sick. how cool!only not

sunday was the most pointless day for the mall to be open, we were dead all day. it was soooo boring, so we just had perfume wars all day, which made it amusing, even though it would have been better to be outside since it was so nice. im excited for summer.

less then a week, ill be in cayman. ahhhhh.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-04-15T12:18:00

2004-04-15T17:21:22Z

hmmm any girls who like looking at boys, i think you should add suicideboys to your friends list, if you havent already cuz i just saw someone that looked like jake gyllanhaal ? hoottttt

ok thats my dumb post for the day.

United States of Ireland

2004-04-12T05:10:57Z

so friday i wish i would have had money to go out with emily and her friends but i didnt so instead i went to this "little party" and amys house. it was fun and it was free so im not complaining at all.

saturday i did asolutely nothing beside go to work, go to adams house for some birthday/easter thing then went home to sleep. very uneventful.

today was easter and me and ava took some pictures.
heres me and ava after we ate too much

and heres ava trying to make out with the camera

then tonight me peter ashley and emily went to see "united states of leland". it was a very good movie, i know i say that a lot, but i really liked it.

heres the bad part of my weekend

neisha was here since thursday and i didnt even get to see her once!!!! im upset and now shes back in madison. :(

our plan on going to ML to give kalkopf a red stapler woudldnt even have worked since they didnt even have school on friday because of easter break

thennn i hear the stupidest drama ever and heres the conversation between jason and amanda
jason: "amanda leah thinks we should break up, so i think we should"
ok, i just told jason my opinion on the whole amanda and him thing, he shoudlnt have told amanda i think they shoudl break up. then amanda comes into my work on saturday trying to explain herself to me. she DOESNT HAVE TO. i know that theres two sides of teh story and i only hear jasons. BUUTTT its not like i have anything to do with their relationship anyway, and i dont want to get in the middle. i was just trying to be there for a friend when he came to me with all his girlfriend troubles.

then to make matters more DUMB, katie throws some party for april and said she didnt think it would be a good idea for me to go since amanda would be there and I would just start shit. ok im not gonna just start shit with amanda. how lame is that. not to mention that april was a close friend of mine and i wouldnt try to ruin her party because of some stuff going on between amanda and jason. katie needs to grow up and stop acting like we're in high school. if any drama happened at that party it would be because katie would go fuck someones boyfriend, you know, the usual kk style. but whatever its all stupid anyway.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-04-08T11:30:00

2004-04-08T16:34:30Z

heres a post for rob, cuz he wanted some "LJ pics" haha

and heres some pictures of rob and ryan showing some love to each other <3

(aww how cute)

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-04-06T03:19:00

2004-04-06T08:20:40Z

yea getting only 4 hours of sleep before a lonnnng day isnt cool.

But hanging out with peter joe and sara is.

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-04-05T23:07:00

2004-04-06T04:14:38Z

yea i have too much to do this week. tomorrow im visiting jazmin (finally) at marquette. i dont know how long iv been talking about visiting but im actually gonna do it. then i have to find rob, he has my lighter cuz he stole it when we hung out.

then wednesday me em and peter have two appointments to look at houses, ASHLEY, if you read this we havnet been able to get ahold of you yet, so i hope you can come too, cuz like you are living with us.

but anyway i have two exams thursday and one on friday. i already know theyre gonna be bad, and itll just make me depressed because i havent been putting in the effort i need to for school, so it IS my fault.

Friday i think im gonna go see the Nuke Pimps aka Adams band, so PEOPLE PLEASE COME WITH ME, itll be funny.

Neisha im excited that your coming to town, i really wanna go with you guys to visit Kalkopf and give him a stapler!!! please dont go without me!!!!!!!!

and of course i work all weekend. so this is the end of my entry.

please fill this out, you know itll be FUN!! :)

2004-04-05T04:31:38Z

1. My name?:
2. Where did we meet?:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. How well do you know me?:
6. Do I smoke?:
7. Do I drink?:
8. When you first saw me, what was your impression?:
9. My age?:
10. My birthday?:
11. Hair color?:
12. Eye color?:
13. Am I tall or short or average?
14. Do I have any siblings?:
15. what are my siblings names?
16. What do you find to be the most annoying about me?
17. Have you ever been jealous of me?
18. Who am I in love with?:
19. What is one of my favorite things to do?:
20. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?:
21. What's your funniest memory of me?:
22. What's my favorite type of music?:
23. What is my best feature?:
24. What is my worst feature?:
25. Do you look up or down on me... as a person?:
26. When you first saw me what did you think of me??
27. Am I a leader or a follower?:
28. Am I shy or outgoing?:
29. Can you picture me dancing'?:
30. Can you picture me rollin'?:
31. Would you say I am funny?:
32. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?
33. Do I have any special talents?:
34. What's my best accomplishment?:
35. Would you consider me a friend?:
36. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a homey, average, sporty, punk,
hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?:
37. Have you ever seen me cry?
38. If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
39. What is your favorite thing to do with me?:
40. Do I drink alcohol?:
41. Do I do drugs?:
42. Have I ever been there for you?:
43. Am I fun to be with?:
44. Am I smart?:
45. Do ya love me?:
46. Name one way I have changed your life or made an impact in it

redxmeansxgo @ 2004-03-31T18:53:00

2004-04-01T01:01:28Z

so last night me emily ashley and peter went looking for houses and apartments. we just frove around the area and wrote down places that looked like a possibility and ended up with four pages of phone numbers to call. (peter how about you make the calls haha) but anyway we found one really close to campus and right down teh street from where becky is moving in and its a 3 room apartment, it looks liek it could be the one..hopefully. so we'll see where this all goes.

no photo shoot this saturday :( instead im going to some show at the rave with shelley, which will be *hot* hhaha

im really bored, someone come save me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee

im bored

2004-03-29T23:00:54Z

i know i dont usually do these kind of things, but im bored and will do anything to stop me from doing homework, and i stole this from rob haaha

Spell your first name backwards - hael

The story behind your [livejournal] user name – well i have this problem with flashing red stop lights when im driving at night, for some reason i just dont see them so i always go thru them and people make fun of me for it so to me red means go.

Are you a lesbian? – no

Where do you live? - milwaukee, wisconsin

Four words that sum you up - quiet bored lame tired

Wallet - blue julius wallet from pac sun oh yea..its cute

Hairbrush – a white one

Toothbrush - blue one

Jewelry worn daily – my watch( i cant go anywhere without one), and earrings

Pillow covers – a big pink one, a big navy one and one with colorful stripes

Blanket – colorful stripes to match my pillow

Underwear - cute ones :)

Sunglasses – little brown ones with a blue tint in them, its kinda hard to explain

CD in stereo right now – pink floyd haha,its awesome

Tattoos - yes, just 3 tiny stars on my hip/stomach

Piercings – ears(13 i think), belly button (2), nose and labret, im starting to think too many?

What you are wearing now? - a yellow striped polo shirt with some faded american eagle jeans and the white belt i wear everyday

Hair - same as usual, just straight

Makeup - well i dont wear a lot of makeup, not enough to stand out

In my mouth - orbit gum, my addiction

In my head - a headache

Wishing – i wasnt sick

After this – homework..... :(

Talking to - becky and megan

Eating – nothing

Person you wish you could see right now - unrealistic but gale harold hahahaa i dont know?!?

Is next to you – becky

Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – going to cayman...ahhhh..i cant wait

The last thing you ate – mmmmm a ham and cheese hot pocket, theyre so good

Something that you are deathly afraid of – that noise that me and emily always here in the bathroom in the movie theater, im not kidding we hear it everytime, and i only hear it when im with her, ashley thinks we're crazy cuz she doesnt here it, but im serious haha it really does scare me

Do you like candles? – yes, theyre fun to play with

Do you like hot wax? - no it hurts

Do you like incense? – yes,especially the free ones you get from starship on a certain day in the week, i think mondays?

Do you like the taste of blood? - hmm no

Do you believe in love? - yes

Do you believe in soul mates? – yes, but i dot think everyone could possibly find theyre exact soul mate

Do you believe in love at first sight? - yes and no

Do you believe in Heaven? - yes

Do you believe in forgiveness? – yes

Do you believe in God? - yes

What do you want done with your body when you die? – i want to be cremated then have my ashes thrown in the ocean

Who is your worst enemy? - id like to say i dont have one, but theres one person whose on my bad list right now

If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be? - i want a bunny, we just saw some in a pet store over the weekend and they were too cute

What is the latest you've ever stayed up? – not going to bed at all, just waiting for the next night, that sucked

Ever been to Belgium? - no

Can you eat with chopsticks? - yes

What's your favorite coin? - quarter i guess

What is your favorite candy? - sour patch kids

What's something that you wish people would understand? - that not everyone is the same, so if someones different, instead of hating them you should try to understand them and realize they dont have to change

What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow? - i want it to stop being cold and just be warm